♥ doubt your doubts before you doubt your beliefs ♥

what a nightmare!!

2009-06-04T00:39:00.000-07:00

ehem,,
last tuesday on 2nd June,gw putus..
mendadak bgt,gag nyangka and speechless abis..
pas g bru plg grj en lg mw mau melayat org mninggal..
gw gag maw crita ap pnyebabnya dan ap prasaan g skg..
"aneeh",cm itu yg bs g blg..
tp ya ud,tho itu jg dy yg mau..
now im trying to live my live without him..

what a beautiful day^^

2009-05-31T18:25:00.000-07:00

miss u sistah..!!

yesterday, I can finally meet my sister, Agassi after 1 year we do not meet.

the plan is coming suddenly.

suddenly on friday she sent me a message and tell me that she want to meet me.

in fact we are already planning to want to meet, but do not know when the right time, because she is working and she lives far from me.

but i remember that i want to stay at my grandma house in Jakarta, so i think its better for us to meet on sunday after i come home from church.

hm, actually im so tired this few weeks. my body become so weak and not forceful.

my friends and school has just completed our last show at the high school to obtain funds to pay in the event PROM later.

I was disappointed. what are we all prepare, do not run well.

I sad to see the spectators come, but come home with the feeling disappointed with what they just saw.
everyday for 1 week, I came to school at 11 am then come home at 3 pm like that every day.
but no results whatsoever.

okay, back to the beginning of the story.

I very pleased to be able to meet with her again.

coz she has just returned from taiwan and korea.

although I confess I very tired, and I almost think to cancel this plan, but I still force my body to continue to walk with her.

I met her at busway station at GM. then we leave for the GI.

after we arrived there, we immediately get around to search for food because we are very hungry and time is already very afternoon.

after we go around GI and did not find anything that can be eaten, we were to go to PI.
during the trip, we never stop talking hehe and as I know, she is avery captious ..; p

finally we eat at Foodcourt PI. agassi eat Korean food and I eat food sunda (i love indonesian food ^^)

after eating, we return to the GI department and I accompany her to Gramedia book store because she wanted to buy a novel entitled "the secret". the book has been found, but we are lazy to pay, because the queue is very long. Gramedia appeared that day are providing 30% discount all items. that's why many people flock to come to go to Gramedia.

then she tried to call her sister and ask as if the book is very good, because she lazy to queue. and her sister tried to borrow books owned by a friend.

in the end so she does not buy, and we walk back and shoot the while taking our pictures. but the time passed so quickly, and I must go home immediately. we separated in busway station in front of the GM, and we plan to meet again later

That's where you find love

2009-05-27T02:55:00.000-07:00

In your eyes, I found the greatest prize
You and I could not be closer
And in your arms, is everything I want
Now I know my search is over

And I don't know where you take me
But it's exactly where I wanna be

[Chorus:]
It's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean's touch
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home
It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been so sure, that's where you find love

People pass, and listen to us laugh
Wishing that they had the same thing
And our friends they ask, how we made it last
I just smile and say the same thing

I'm not sure how we got here
Baby I'm just glad that we got here

[Chorus:]
It's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean's touch
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home
It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been so sure, that's where you find love
That's where you find love

It's where the stars line up
It's where the ocean's touch
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home
It's in the air right now
It's when you give your all, and give a little more
I've never been this sure, that's where you find love

Find love
That's where you find love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a2O0di8xE8Y

last night ;)

2009-05-27T02:31:00.000-07:00

我无法入睡，昨天晚上，所以我更愿意把我自己的图片。
只是为了好玩，当然。

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Dufan Pictures

2009-05-27T01:36:00.001-07:00

missing her..

2009-05-27T01:13:00.000-07:00

this is the beginning of the story ..
I was a friend of the shin, he introduce me to his gf named Carissa. they are the first pair of lovers. However not long after Shin died because of brain tumor disease.

Carissa live near my grandmother's house which is located in the center.
family business to open the salon ..
and she sometimes helped her mother work ..

Carissa live with parents who complete and one big brother
she lectures at the university atmajaya accounting department ..

let's go to the main story ..
i miss her so damn much!
Our last meeting is June of year ..
The first time we chat, I feel we are very appropriate ..
despite the age difference between us is far enough, that is 4 years old, but it does not matter ..

tells us a lot of things .. she tells about shin and all things about his bad habbit, hahha ..
I was told when I am still in a relationship with my ex-bf ..

there are many more that we do together, but we have not had time to walk together ..
so i hope this year I can meet her again and walk with her.

尝试

2009-05-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

试试！
谈论你自己了！
确定了目标。
吃的权利
爱自己
享受生活
休息与放松
发挥了积极的
灵魂搜寻
关心他人

wasting my time..

2009-05-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

hari ini,,g ke skul lg..
bwt latian dnce,yg rencananya maw latian ndiri krn kapten nya gag dtg..
tp pd gag ad yg latian,,alhasil g geje dsini and doing nothing!!
gag lama tmen" yg laen pd dtg c,cthnya koko,yg bwa laptop,jd g bs ol..;p
malees bgt sbnrnya g kurang tdur,kmrn j bru bs tdur jm 1 TT
uda dlu d,g maw latian nyanyi skg am yg laen bwt wisudaan nanti...
abis itu maw lgs plg..

actually g uda malees am facebook huh!!

06-05-09

2009-05-15T04:14:00.000-07:00

lalalaaa,
g ke dufan thu tgl sgitu..
asoooy gebooy dahh..

pagi" g,lala,vani,sun" pd ngumpul d skull..
rencananya maw dianter am bokpnya koko thu ke dufan..
yaaa pokoke pas jln rada macet gt d,,
tp it was funn^^
g ngoooooooooceh mlu slama prjlanan..
lala hmpr marah am g..(maav ya dalrz,i just cant shut my mouth)
nyampe dufan qt mampir dlu ke putri duyung cos masi kepagian..><
numpang WC am maw ambil brosur hahaha

teyuuuuuuuuuus,,
qta dtinggal am bokpnya yantho coz ad meeting gtu d pagi"",,tp gpp koq om,,ud tengkyuu bgt dianteriin gtu,,mpe msuk pula,,plus dbayarin tket msuk huhuh jd gag enak..
dtinggal pegii,,jdilah qt ber5 jln" pagi d pantai ancol..
sueeeepi bgdz..
numpang poto" am make sunblock..
[btw sunblocknya lala TOP abess,g gag iteem am skali! TWO THUMBS UP!]
bis thu qta lewat jln blakang thu ke antrian dpn dufan..

nyampe loket,,qta ktemu anak ipa 4 huahaha..mreka jg maen,tp mreka skls,,seru ya..><
sambil nunggu miss thea dkk,qt poto" lg d^^
hihih
gag lama mrk dtg en qt beli karcis en msuk dupan d,
tp ajuuuu gile puannnnnnnnnnnasnya jm 12 siang..TT
g smpet ksel th hmpir badmuud..TT

tp y ud d,,namanya jg dufan..[gag nymbung]

pertaaaaama naek KORA KORA..
duh,,melenyooos perut g..
lgs mual!
mn g blm mkn lg ckckck
tp br eneq g ilang semenit,g lgs lari ke TORNADO..
ciakakaka

eneeeq lg,,g lari ke pontang panting hihihih
abs itu g nyerah..
mending sblm g muntah,g mkan d..
d MCd..TT
hahaa
yg paling ueeenak da murah cickakakakkaka

uda ah g malees nulis..
the point is,,g naek KORAKORA 7x.
Tornado 1x [sgt meyesal..TT]
pontang panting 1x
niagara 1x [g diomelin yantho gr" SLRnya basah]
ontang anting 2x [shit!! seruuuu smad]
halilintar 5x..

blblblalalala
g lupa lg saking kebanyakan..TT

tpi guys,,g ketemu FITRI TROPIKA lhooow..
[bgi yg gag taw,dy itu yg maen prime time.. " snaaap snap senaaaaaaaaaaaap"
huahahaha
lg syuting primetime trnyata..

niat hati mau mnta poto brg,tp dufan ud tutp c..
huhuuhuh
dadadah fitri next time ya..
huhu

boring friday..

2009-05-15T03:54:00.000-07:00

hari ini,,g bgn jam 8 lewatt..
maleees bgt..!!
tp krn g hrs ke skul ad lata bwt wisuda,jd nya dtg aj d..TT
g jd gag bs nonton meteor garden II huhuhu..

pas nyampe skul,ternyaata pd ngaret 1 jm!! eek lha..
pas lat,,ternyata lagu-nya th lagu I HAVE A DREAM..
g uda apal gtu lhow!!
eh cm stenga jm pula latnya..
ckckkc

awalnya abs lat maw lgs plg j,,g msi ngntukk,,
eh atas bjukan tmen",g jd ikut mreka ke sms..haha
eh g nnton the angels and demond..
bguuus euy!!
tp masa pd blg itu davinci code yg ke-2..?
bbong aje..!!
g gag nnton c dvinci code,,tp mnurut g yg ini gag ad penyesatannya kq..
ktnya dvinci ad..
taw ah..
en g emg gag interest nnton movie yg ad penyesatan"nya meski sebagus ap...
hemm sory ya guys..
hoho

13th april 2009

2009-04-17T02:33:00.000-07:00

hemm, there was a unforgetable birthday in my life..;D first, finally after 18th years my daddy greeting me a happy biirthday.haha then my friends gave me a "surprise" like they gave me a birthday cake and many presents. hahaha
(tiramissu and oreoo cake)^^

when i went home,I immediately fall asleep bcos i felt so tired.. at 7 o'clock my aunty knocked my door,i opened it and saw she brought chocolate cake with candle above..(i love choco!!)

I almost wept when i saw that view. when i was 17th,my fams didn't celebrated and I also do not mind to it. but ytd, even though my birthday is not celebrated, nop for me^^ enough that all the attention given to me.. ehhhehehe., hey,have i ever told u that my bf's birthday same as me?^^

2009-04-04T04:04:00.001-07:00

hahahaha
i think i'll offline soon..
because now im watching of charice' video..
can't wait till her become one of the most great singer..;D
enough for this day..
LOLS~
hahaha

for the last,, wanna invite you to watch this link^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MMtE6ffPs9g&feature=related

2009-04-04T03:58:00.000-07:00

this evening, im just look the video of Celine's concert..
im speechless..!!
my opinion, charice's voice is better than celine's..
how come..TT
huuufhh~~
veryy amazing !!

*nooooorak mode ON

2009-04-04T03:42:00.000-07:00

whooooooooooooa..!!
that was amazing..
this afternoon, i watched Oprah Show on my television..
and there was a Charice..!!
do you know her..?
she's so talent girl..
i'm not lying!!
ooh I really admire her..
she has a very beautiful voice that Celine Dion love it so much. .
then Celine tell her to go to USA next week to have a dut with her..!!!
OMG..
cool ! cool ! cool !
but i knoe la,, this events is already happend in a long time ago..
hahaha

and i become a freak ppl who very norak now.. TT
sad sad sad..

but i still admire her..;D

and there's a picture bout her and celine..
ENJOY..!!

2009-04-04T02:54:00.000-07:00

as i soar my gaze to the depth of your eyes ,
i feel like flying up in the infinitive blue .
climbing the rainbows ,
crosing the clouds ,
feeling soft blew of the wind within' my face .
the flicher of gentle light ,
tickling my very soul .
then i discover what i found ,
a precious star ,
twinkling brightly ,
softly as if a hand reached out to me ,
taking me out to this world that full of grace and lies .
there in your precious star ,
i found an answer .
an endless truth ,
i feel warmth nestling in ,
this wish from the sky is coming to me ,
and to the beauty of what's in you. .

2009-04-03T21:27:00.000-07:00

phol need to offline now..
so so sad..~
will come back on next week larr~~
hihihi

zai jiann loo. .
kisses**

2009-04-03T21:14:00.000-07:00

dearest friend ever after . .
love her so much..
her name is Hanna Christina..
have a tall and nice body.. (huh, envy her..TT) enjoy the pics^^

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the day with my beloved friend.. Clara

2009-04-03T21:04:00.001-07:00

my 1st bestie named Clara Alverina Gunadi..
as known as lala.. (same with me..LOLS`)
enjoy the pics..

2009-04-03T20:48:00.001-07:00

nothing to do..
happy saturday morning anyway..

hm ,, let me introduce myslef..
my FULL name is Paula Monica..
with chinesse name Wen Bao Bei..
and korean name Park Eun Sub..
u should call me PHOL or LALA ,, it's depend to u..

i live in indoensia now,,
but i got mix blood from china - holland - indonesia..
bcos mommy mix indo - china ,, and daddy mix holland - china - indo..
so here im.. gado-gado..;D

i spend my life for 18th years in indonesia,and stuck here..TT
i wish i could live in another country,, realy" boriiiiiiing..

i'd love to have many friend ,, esp abroad ,, dunno why ,, but tat's me..;D
so i was join friendster but already cancel my account bcos there's so manyy FAKER.
now i play facebook and it's just for the one i know ,,but still pepole who doesn't know me add me..TT
i know this we from my friend ,, and im so feel interest^^
hahah bcos maybe i like to write all the things that's happend to me..
but this is make me upset!!!!
im totally dont understand to edit this web..TT

is there anyone that could help me..?

WHAT A PITY ME.. :":

2009-04-03T20:45:00.000-07:00

hufffh~
so stress..
still can't edit this web on my own..TT
so ,, today i just waste my time useless..
haizzz~

little bro~

2009-04-03T20:00:00.000-07:00

oh yeah!
i do miiiiiiiiiiis him so much..
muach* muach*
he's my lil bro..
his name is Rafael..
he's 11th years old this year. . (maybe)
he haas a biiig body, hahahahs~
very cute, lovely, manjaaa bgt am eke, but he's a bit arrogant..TT

one day,i ever tried to hug him up..
OMG!!
what a heavy child, i tot..
but when he tried to hug me up, he could!!!!
hahahahahahah~

i always meet him when i go to the church^^
he alwys call me ,, "cici paula.."
damn!
i miss his voice..!!
i do not know how ,, but this sunday ,, i must meet him!!
hahahaha~

tat's the picture of his face..
enjoy~~

2009-04-03T19:45:00.000-07:00

thanks to my beloved boy..
hahah
tat's already design my blog,,
ca bu duo lah..
khekhekhe..
i hope u'll make a new blog for your own..
or u need a help..?
but u must edit by yourself..
hahahha
miss u..
and have fun for today^^

that's him..;D

last night ~

2009-04-03T19:44:00.000-07:00

hm,,
good morning evry one..
i'd to tell u bout my dream last night..TT
tat's so night mare..
i was dream tat my bf leave me alone in the mall bcos of he was so jealos when he was looking at me talking with my junior high school..TT

i felt sad too,bcos i should go to the church last thursday to chapel and to prepare my choir for easter..
but i didnt come , im sick , and i had 2 exams for tomorrow..
so, my friend change my position , and she's my best friend.. TT
so sad..
huhuhu

how frustrating the day. .

but despite all that has happened, I still love my good friend and my schact

continue to fight!

2009-04-03T03:11:00.000-07:00

huffh.,
finally i finished my whole SHIT test for this week.
tetapi aku masih harus menyiapkan diri untuk ulangan minggu depan
but beetter,now i can breathing relieved.
now i can breathing relieved
thank the Lord, this day I do not feel headache.
results of this test is quite bearable, not too ugly also.

today,there was a tauten events,,
my friends are caught truant school.
they really are very compassionate.

ckckck,,
my teacher to come to each class to note that not all of them are in the class

I was not able to say words again, they are all wrong.
why they cut the school when they know that there are still lessons ..

hufffh`
that's all for todaay..